And so here we are again after a month-long break. Since I was last here, I have had some extreme feelings of panic and doubt, and I have done my best to avoid places that trigger them.
One is specific came back tonight after stumbling upon a certain forum post that made me, well, doubt things all over again. I did my best to engage in a related activity to those doubts but ultimately it was of no good use. I felt like my sanity had slipped out from under me, and I am experiencing a feeling of going crazy right this moment as I am typing this. Uncertainty and unconfidence consumes my mind as I sit here with my red-colored and drained eyes from a not-quite-done week of schoolwork.
And I would be feeling a little bit happier if I never had to come across the trigger tonight, but unfortunately a completely unrelated Google search landed me back in what I dub the "doubt train". And the doubt train has brought me here back to Blogger to express my feelings yet again after a whole month of inactivity. Basically what I am trying to say is that, if you suffer from intense anxiety, certain places, things, or events (or even people sometimes) can trigger your anxiety if you have specific worries. And then it will ruin your day. The next step now is to just try and relax and get this doubt out of your head. DOUBT MAKES ME SO MAD!
